Aku manusia plg hipokrit sebenarnya. Bersembunyi di sebalik senyuman manis. Ceria sepanjang hari dan cuba menggembirakan orang2 d sekeliling aku. Tapi, pada hakikatnya...
The most excruciating part about pain is when u can't let out even a single tear...u can't even let tears pool in your eyes....u haf 2 wear a fake smile eventhough u r bleeding inside and when u r unable to tell or share ur problems with anyone...not a single soul....cause in d end....dey were not listening...not listening with their heart....just with their ears. N If u tell sum1...den it mite end up 2 b dat ur d bad guy...cuz it's hard 2 make other understand unless they were u. So...i guess d best way is 2 just shut up & pretend that everythings normal and make believe d pain was never there. That's the most excruciating part of all.
Bur I'm glad....my acting did work...ppl around me believe dat i'm hepi ....I cried silentli in my heart. Always telling lies. Always wearing a fake smile. Dats me...d "GREAT ironbutterfly". D great fake superhipocrite ironbutterfly. Dats me.......
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Lalalala...kerja!...kerja!
Keja! Keja! Bukan tamo keja. Tp stkat ne belom jumpa yg bekenan d hati. X der rezeki kot sama. Da p 2 tmpat yg mmg aku target iaitu watson & guardian, tp 2-2 pon bru je hire org. Uhu. Den jumpa gak satu farmasi ne, dia mmg nak pkai pharmacist pon, tp aku ne mana dpt license g. PRP pon x lepaih lg. Bila pikiaq2 balek, x sanggop aku nak menanggong tanggongjawab beso 2. Pengalaman bukan x cukup, tp x dak langsung. Mati patient kang mampoih hako.
Kalo bley aku mmg la nak cari partyme job yg berkaitan ngn bidang aku. Dan aku mmg target watson & guardian je. Sebab 2 antara pebret tempat shopping aku (pdhal shopping alat mekap je =p). Tp 2 la, stil blom de rezeki. Hopefuli resume yg aku send kat watson n guardian outlet len 2 mendapat maklom balas la hendakny. Aku harap sgt dapat keje kat c2. Tamo keje tmpat len da (dgn nada ketegaq;p). Tp, kalo difikir2kan balek, aku kena keja gak no matter what, by hook o by crook! Dwet nak gne byk ne 4 graduation esp 4 d photography session. Takkan sume nak harap kat ummi je.
Kalo ikutkan, ummi swoh duk umah je. Tp kalo duk umah pon aku bukannnya de mende nak bwat. Asyik ngadap lappy je smpai power spek pon aku rasa da nek. Weekdays je sume p skolah n pejabat. Duk la aku sengsorg. Dengan kos nak p berulang ke KL lg 4 my dentist appt. Dwet2...x der dwet x yah ceta. No money no talk.
Rasa cam...owh cepatla posting. Tp bila fikir2 balek, aku ne da ready ka nak wat prp ne??? Mcm ilmu pon x cukup d dada lg. Takot la pulak jadinya. Huhu...
Papepon, aku doa, aku dapat la partyme job kat mana2 farmasi (watson o guardian) walaupon mereka hnya menjual non-POMs & supplements je. Eh, & not forgotten my pebret cosmetics =p
Kalo bley aku mmg la nak cari partyme job yg berkaitan ngn bidang aku. Dan aku mmg target watson & guardian je. Sebab 2 antara pebret tempat shopping aku (pdhal shopping alat mekap je =p). Tp 2 la, stil blom de rezeki. Hopefuli resume yg aku send kat watson n guardian outlet len 2 mendapat maklom balas la hendakny. Aku harap sgt dapat keje kat c2. Tamo keje tmpat len da (dgn nada ketegaq;p). Tp, kalo difikir2kan balek, aku kena keja gak no matter what, by hook o by crook! Dwet nak gne byk ne 4 graduation esp 4 d photography session. Takkan sume nak harap kat ummi je.
Kalo ikutkan, ummi swoh duk umah je. Tp kalo duk umah pon aku bukannnya de mende nak bwat. Asyik ngadap lappy je smpai power spek pon aku rasa da nek. Weekdays je sume p skolah n pejabat. Duk la aku sengsorg. Dengan kos nak p berulang ke KL lg 4 my dentist appt. Dwet2...x der dwet x yah ceta. No money no talk.
Rasa cam...owh cepatla posting. Tp bila fikir2 balek, aku ne da ready ka nak wat prp ne??? Mcm ilmu pon x cukup d dada lg. Takot la pulak jadinya. Huhu...
Papepon, aku doa, aku dapat la partyme job kat mana2 farmasi (watson o guardian) walaupon mereka hnya menjual non-POMs & supplements je. Eh, & not forgotten my pebret cosmetics =p
Monday, June 29, 2009
23 sux!!!
* Berfikiran jauh & berwawasan.
@ ye ke???
* Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik.
@ blush
* Berperangai lemah lembut.
@ hahahaha...adeh....ne plg tahyol
* Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea dan mood.
@ sgt!!!
* Idea yang terlalu banyak di kepala.
@ hehe =p
* Bersikap sensitif.
@ sgt!!!
* Mempunyai pemikiran yang aktif (sentiasa berfikir).
@ hehe =p
* Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera.
@ sgt!!!
* Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh.
@ sgt!!!
* Bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yang terbaik.
@ sgt!!!
* Cepat marah & cepat sejuk.
@ sgt! den nyesal x sudah
* Suka bercakap & berdebat.
@ err...bcakap ye, debat x kowt
* Suka buat lawak & bergurau.
@ suka ^_^ ngusik
* Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan.
@ haha =p
* Mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan.
@ pandai ke =p
* orang yang sangat tertib.
@ herm2
* Pandai mempamerkan sikap.
@ iye???
* Mudah kecil hati.
@ sgt!!!
* Mudah kena selsema.
@ sgt!!! tiap2 hr kot
* Suka berkemas.
@ suka ^_^
* Cepat rasa bosan.
@ sgt!!!
* Sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet.
@ hehe =p
* Kurang mempamerkan perasaan.
@ ye kot
* Lambat untuk sembuh apabila terluka hati.
@ sgt!!!
* Suka pada barang yang berjenama.
@ suka ^_^
* Mudah menjadi eksekutif.
@ amin ^_^
* Kedegilan yang tidak terkawal.
@ haha...sgt!!!
* Sesiapa yang memuji, dianggap musuh. Siapa yang menegur dianggap kawan.
@ ha???
I'll definateli stop counting when i reach 30=p
I actuali hate my b-day. Reali hate it. It was a date which reminds me of d day dat I made d most stupidest mistake in my life. Never again!!!!!
Stil hoping dat I can haf a heppi b-day though. But, dun wish me a v heppi b-day when I can't haf 1. Not 4 d tyme being I guess. Not when there's still a scar 2 remind me of my past. Seperti tercatat d atas, lambat semboh bila terluka hati =p Oh well, i'm healing. Tyme will heal me won't it ^_^ hope so =)
@ ye ke???
* Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik.
@ blush
* Berperangai lemah lembut.
@ hahahaha...adeh....ne plg tahyol
* Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea dan mood.
@ sgt!!!
* Idea yang terlalu banyak di kepala.
@ hehe =p
* Bersikap sensitif.
@ sgt!!!
* Mempunyai pemikiran yang aktif (sentiasa berfikir).
@ hehe =p
* Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera.
@ sgt!!!
* Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh.
@ sgt!!!
* Bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yang terbaik.
@ sgt!!!
* Cepat marah & cepat sejuk.
@ sgt! den nyesal x sudah
* Suka bercakap & berdebat.
@ err...bcakap ye, debat x kowt
* Suka buat lawak & bergurau.
@ suka ^_^ ngusik
* Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan.
@ haha =p
* Mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan.
@ pandai ke =p
* orang yang sangat tertib.
@ herm2
* Pandai mempamerkan sikap.
@ iye???
* Mudah kecil hati.
@ sgt!!!
* Mudah kena selsema.
@ sgt!!! tiap2 hr kot
* Suka berkemas.
@ suka ^_^
* Cepat rasa bosan.
@ sgt!!!
* Sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet.
@ hehe =p
* Kurang mempamerkan perasaan.
@ ye kot
* Lambat untuk sembuh apabila terluka hati.
@ sgt!!!
* Suka pada barang yang berjenama.
@ suka ^_^
* Mudah menjadi eksekutif.
@ amin ^_^
* Kedegilan yang tidak terkawal.
@ haha...sgt!!!
* Sesiapa yang memuji, dianggap musuh. Siapa yang menegur dianggap kawan.
@ ha???
I'll definateli stop counting when i reach 30=p
I actuali hate my b-day. Reali hate it. It was a date which reminds me of d day dat I made d most stupidest mistake in my life. Never again!!!!!
Stil hoping dat I can haf a heppi b-day though. But, dun wish me a v heppi b-day when I can't haf 1. Not 4 d tyme being I guess. Not when there's still a scar 2 remind me of my past. Seperti tercatat d atas, lambat semboh bila terluka hati =p Oh well, i'm healing. Tyme will heal me won't it ^_^ hope so =)
The mOst beauTiful futuRe wiLl alwaYs depEnd on tHe neeD 4 forGetting thE paSt. u Will nOt be aBle to go froM the pAst in liFe as loNg as u Will nOt hv overCome the erRors of the past n all that HURT u.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Revenge of d Fallen~tet tot tot tot tet =p
Alkisahnya...me & my sis went out yesterday kunun2 nak tgok transformers second episode Revenge of d Fallen. Actually I even went to Aloq Staq mall earlier in d morning to get d tix but...walah...kaunter tix pown x bukak lg...ceit. Maka bertolaklah kami pd pkul 2.10ptg di atas kelewatan adeqku yg lengai2 ayam (geram toi ngn minah senget sowang neh =p). As expected, tix sold out & we end up buying d tix 4 2moro show.
Selepas membelek2 tix tersebot, aku terperasan...eh esok b-day abah la. Tibe2, muncul idea nak ajak abah tngok skali. Memandangkan umminy b-day pown just around d corner, maka kami pon decide beli tix 4 ummi skali la~kira cam adiah b-day la...hehe. Da dpt byg da pown actli ummi akan meratoih kat kami 80kandaq...haha. So, atas kelicikan aku...ku beri tiket tersebot masa ngah minum ptg dgn ucapan~ummi, masa makan x bek ooo marah2. Haha, ummi & abah senyom je la, nak kata pe lg, tiket da beli. Plan berjaya.
Maka bertolaklah kami ke "bigcinema" hari neh tok mnonton "10pomes" =p Org x yah citer la...mmg ramai giler. Herm, tp in d end...aku agak a bit dissapointed w d show. Expecting to much from others ny previews n trailers i've seen. Ke was it b-cuz d fightings & actions is way a lil bit too much w less conversation. Kesimpulannya, sy lagi suka Transformers 1st epid. Uhu.
Next movie will b Ice Age 3 & of course Twilight~New Moon. Catherine Hardwicke~pls dun dissapoint me again.
Sincerely written by a muvie buff =p
p/s: epi b-day abah ^_^
Selepas membelek2 tix tersebot, aku terperasan...eh esok b-day abah la. Tibe2, muncul idea nak ajak abah tngok skali. Memandangkan umminy b-day pown just around d corner, maka kami pon decide beli tix 4 ummi skali la~kira cam adiah b-day la...hehe. Da dpt byg da pown actli ummi akan meratoih kat kami 80kandaq...haha. So, atas kelicikan aku...ku beri tiket tersebot masa ngah minum ptg dgn ucapan~ummi, masa makan x bek ooo marah2. Haha, ummi & abah senyom je la, nak kata pe lg, tiket da beli. Plan berjaya.
Maka bertolaklah kami ke "bigcinema" hari neh tok mnonton "10pomes" =p Org x yah citer la...mmg ramai giler. Herm, tp in d end...aku agak a bit dissapointed w d show. Expecting to much from others ny previews n trailers i've seen. Ke was it b-cuz d fightings & actions is way a lil bit too much w less conversation. Kesimpulannya, sy lagi suka Transformers 1st epid. Uhu.
Next movie will b Ice Age 3 & of course Twilight~New Moon. Catherine Hardwicke~pls dun dissapoint me again.
Sincerely written by a muvie buff =p
p/s: epi b-day abah ^_^
Saturday, June 20, 2009
First blog in here =)
switching 2 blogspot. Hopefuli will be much2 mo convenient 2 write wuteva I want after dis without having 2 worry about dis particular annoying person who just love 2 read others ppl blogs but at the same tyme she just love 2 condemn it. Why...hell, if u hate it so much...y read it??? =p
herm....4 d tyme being....dis is all I haf 2 say...mata neh =) looking 4ward to babble =p heh
herm....4 d tyme being....dis is all I haf 2 say...mata neh =) looking 4ward to babble =p heh
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